I never expected

I never expected it to be hard, but I didn’t expect it to be easy.

I never expected that it would take so long, but come so quickly.

I never expected all the fear, but also the security.

I just never expected.

The truth is that it’s never this or that, its somewhere in between.

The fairy tale life you’ve dream about will never have its sheen.

Normal is the ups and downs, the fights and cuddles, the uninterested and keen.

None of it expected.

What I wanted was only the part that was good and true.

I wanted something that was forever, undying, and without limit too.

They said it would be consume; it would burn inside – like a fire of blue.

It was what I expected.

With the good and true came the bad and the lies

That sometimes felt like forever, decaying - beyond my limits of compromise.

I was consumed, but by thoughts of doubt and feelings in disguise.

Too much expected.

But like a seed that’s planted takes time to root, and sprout, and grow –

A life with another takes time to study, and learn, and know.

Patience, understanding, willingness, consideration, a bit of quid pro quo;

Can be expected.

Expect the hard and easy, the long and quick, fear and security.

Expect the fairy tale, the horror story, and even some drama and comedy.

Expect all that’s good and bad, the truth and lies, and time for maturity.

Just don’t expect it to be what you expected.